Mar. 17th, 2001

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Angelica yelled at me for not updating this. I didn't think people actually READ it! Okay, recap of the last month.

Lent started, and Wood gave up candy. I thought i might give something up and, as III was pissing me off with his relations with Wood, I decided to give him up! Therefore, I didn't answer any of his IMs, etc. Yes I was stupid, I don't need that pointed out. People yelled at me, and I considered talking to him again.. but, out of sight, out of mind. That, and he'd blocked me. It hurt to talk to him, it hurt to heard Wood go on and on about him, so I shut them out of my life.

I grew more and more miserable, and my parents asked me what was wrong. It hurt to talk about, so I shut them out, too. I refused to let them see me eat, and resorted to spiriting food from the kitchen to eat in my room. Eventually my parents took me to the mall, sat me in a restaurant, and forced me to talk. Everything came out, about how lonely I was, how much I hate people. So I started to let people back into my life.

Then things took a turn for the worse again. Wood admitted she liked III, and for all I try to act like I'm over him, I snapped. I screamed at her one night, blaming her for being so naive and for trying to take him from me. Then, of course, he IMs me to say hi and to ask what's wrong. I lie and say nothing, that everything's fine... Then he said that I could IM him when I wanted to talk, and "if it's worth anything, I was considering asking you to my prom in May, but now I don't know..".

For a moment, I just stared at the screen. Why? Why did he do that? Why does he do anything? I felt terrible, and I started to apologize.. I don't know what's happening now. I talk to Wood, but things are uneasy. I talk to him, but we avoid the topic.

What else has been happening...? I won a box of Swedish Fish! I found a leprechaun in the drink machine at school, making my total contests won equal to 1. Hehe.

Still quiet on the western front where romance is concerned.

I went and saw the opening night of the school play, "The Good Doctor". HILARIOUS! Dev, once again, worked his magic on stage the way no other can, and the duet between Quinton and Brooke brought tears to my eyes! Diarra was fantastic in both her scenes, and Beth brought a new facet to the part I wanted so badly. Rafi, you were right, the voice you do is hilarious! "Aha, I do.. tingle all the time". *cackles*

Anyway, tomorrow I'm off to the mall with Di and Ange, to drive the shopkeepers WILD. Rrrrowl!

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I totally forgot about St. Patty's Day. So have a happy one. Even though there's a grand total of.. um.. 51 minutes left in it.

Some song lyrics I relate to lately:

I'm a bitch
I'm a tease
I'm a godess on my knees
When you hurt, when you suffer
I'm your angel under cover.
How do I get back there to
The place where you said
I want something else
To get me through this
Semi-charmed kinda life
Yeah, and I want something else
Not listening when you say
Promises are like
Little Diamonds
Promises are like
Little hearts you make
To give away.
I thought you'd want them back someday
I kept them for you anyway
Cos I know when I've been given
Hard promises to keep.
Remember the first time
We met each other
You were in your world
And I was in mine
Breaking down the barriers
We broke all the rules
But wasn't it good...
Wasn't it fine?
While I took for granted
You took your time
Longing for love, oh how we tried
It's over now, that's understood..
But wasn't it good?

Now it's late. I'm going to bed, d'you hear?


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